Loaded down with compromise And purple with potential in our breath We’re tired stories And whispers late at night into the phone With bruises on our ribs and egos From parking fines and shoulders on the street Intentions tangled Like two teens trying hard to be alone Let’s list the reasons why we’re too afraid to sleep in the dark The sound of fridges and the sting of the past tense Show me the games you play to keep away the worst of your doubt And I promise I will never lie again There is beauty in our bodies More than fumbling locks and keys Hold my hand and say it with me I am not my insecurity There’s one thing keeping your clothes on And it’s not me Let’s break the floor beneath our beds and dig for something we lost I don’t remember what it’s called but I miss it Another evening dialing customer support to just talk But I promise This is not the end of us Let’s make my noisy upstair neighbors into cloud shapes And see if everything is better after midnight comes Please take us home Wordless, linger in the doorway You won’t regret your choices ‘til she leaves The distant gavel You wanna go, but yet you still remain Let’s list decisions that we wish we didn’t have to survive I’ll show you all the wilted photos they come with Show me the usernames we made when we were comedy queens And they’ll make us More than what’s been done to us Let’s list the reasons why we’re too afraid to sleep in the dark The sound of fridges and the sting of the past tense Show me the games you play to keep away the worst of your doubt And I promise I will never lie again No, I will never lie again

Certainty It’s the Safeco screen Shout out the answer the ball in the hats One, two, three Suddenly Not so quick to choose So fixed on the fine print you balance regret With what you’ll lose Trick or treat (Tear apart your old receipts) Bring your old receipts Sort out the letters and we’ll spell out words Too small to see Darling I’m not laughing as loud as I used to I don’t sleep Could you call in sick tomorrow? Cause this joke might take all night Honestly (Smile like you’re scared like me) Are you scared like me? Not of the monsters at war and bombs beneath beds But of little lies Like sympathy (No pink pills a full night’s sleep) And a full night’s sleep I’ve built a prison from read receipt times Do you wanna see? Darling I’m not laughing as loud as I used to I can’t keep Calling home expecting answers Is this what I am now? I’m stuck but don’t know how Both roads getting steeper I’m trapped by procedure Tell me which goodbye to write Hang my bachelor’s degree From the ceiling Buy a fat plastic bat down the street I’m hosting a party Let’s take a few swings And see what comes out beyond candy We were born far too late for the oceans And the same but too soon for the stars The age of anxiety bubbling up Over windows of borrowed and filthy cars Our only frontier is our fleeting sense of meaning And we’ve got a few hours until morning If you wanna talk it out Look at me All these doors I’ve shut All of my memory’s got red and blue wires I’m scared to cut Darling I’m not laughing as loud as I used to I feel cheap, why’s the future so misleading? Think hard with me Try to believe We’ll make our life like the movies I think I left my faith inside the theatre With whatever get better means Where I cried at the final scene Showing us with some scissors and foul-line seats Making choices with nothing but sweet beliefs Singing: If we can’t be young and lovely We will just be young